Thank You, For You Inspired Me

Posted: June 2, 2013 in Uncategorized

Thank You, For You Inspired Me

By Clinton

 

I want to say Thank You

To the Lord Up Above

For leading my life

to be surrounded by Love

For the books of Proverbs and Psalms

helped me to love Poetry

You Inspired Me

 

I want to say Thank You

To my family

my Dad, mom and sister

nephews, aunts, uncles and cousins

for each in your own way

show love for me

so to each one of you I say

You Inspired me

 

I want to say thank you

To my teachers and to the clergy

Friends and those I had to fight

For you helped to mold me

To know what was wrong

and what was right.

You inspired me

 

I want to say thank you

To the ladies that I asked out

Again and again

I know that you tired of telling me

That you just wanted to be my friend

until everthing came to an end

You Inspired me

 

I want to say Thank You

especially to the Jews,

if it wasn’t for your desire for me to hear

a certain persons work

you wanted me to know,

And that being Edgar Allan Poe

You Inspired Me

 

I want to say Thank You

To be Poets of BTR

Like D’Poetess, Soultre,

De Educated Poet, Janet Dawson

PoetryIsMe, and to the rest

well you know who are are.

You Inspired Me

 

But to one certain person

I want to say Thank You

I really need for you to know it

For in the last story I wrote

Your Poetic words help me to grow it

Paradyme you mean the world to me

I’ll always be there for you, just so you know it

Thank You, For You Inspired me

 

 

What Ever Happened To?

Posted: June 2, 2013 in Uncategorized

What Ever Happened To?

By St_Clinton

 

What ever happened to the Militant Poets?

The ones who spoke about the wrongs in the world

The ones that caused the audience to stand up and say “You know it”

 

What ever happened to the Spoken Word Artist?

The ones who reached into your mind and soul,

The ones who caused you to think like none other dareth

 

What ever happened to the Societal Lyricist?

The ones who weren’t scared to speak about societies truths

The ones where you say to yourself, “I am glad that I am hearing this”

 

What ever happened to the Reality Rhymers?

You know that ones that could write one about a life of a tree

And you sit and wonder, “Is this about me?”

 

What ever happened to the true talent?

The ones who could write more than pornetry,

by giving us a taste of there intellectuality.

 

What ever happened to the true wordsmiths?

The ones who could also talk about This

Not just about That.

 

What ever happened to those who would be original Thinkers?

Not the ones who had some good original works

But most of the stuff in their works is just stinkers.

 

I know that they say things will cycle around again

And maybe they will do works that inspire me and you

But at the moment I sit and wonder, “What ever happened to…?

 

The Eyes Have It

Posted: June 2, 2013 in Uncategorized

The Eyes Have It

By Clinton

 

I look into her eyes

They look back at me

Reaching into my soul

Letting me know

She feels my truths

She feels my lies

She feels my lows

She feels my highs

She feels my weaknesses

She feels my strengths

But still, she accepts me for me

 

I look into her eyes

They look back at me

Reaching into my mind

Letting me know

She knows the good in me

She knows the bad

She knows the pain that I’ve caused

She knows the pain that I have felt

She knows the things that I hate

She knows the things that I love

But still, she accepts me for me

 

I look into her eyes

They look back at me

Reaching into my heart

Letting me know

She sees the ugly that I have seen

She sees the beauty that I have seen

She sees the hurt that I’ve caused

She sees the good that I’ve done

She sees the boy that I am

She see the man that I have become

But still, she accepts me for me

 

I look into her eyes

They look back at me

Reaching into my words

letting me know

She hears the dislikes

She hears the fears

She hears the lies

She hears the cries

She hears the terror

She hears the love

But still, she accepts me for me

I look into her eyes

They look back at me

Reaching into my body

Letting me know

She embraces the ills that I have had

She embraces the ills I will have

She embraces the bad way that I’ve treated it

She embraces the good that I have done to it

She embraces the imperfections of it

She embraces the perfections of it

But still, she accepts me for me

 

I look into her eyes

They look back at me

Reaching into my aura

Letting me know

I will treat her better than just my Queen

I will give her my total trust

I will communicate with her

I will tell her no lie

I will give her total loyalty

I will give her me, the total me

But still, she accepts me for me

 

I look into her eyes

they look back at me

I open my world to you

please don’t slam yours on me.

 

Love For Ancestors

Posted: June 2, 2013 in Uncategorized

Posting a few of my poems

Love For Ancestors
By Clinton

I find it amazing the lack of Love
We have for our Ancestors
in the Black community today.
I wonder what our Ancestors
would have to say
if they heard the words that we use today.

We use a word today
Which brought Terror
in the form of the KKK
But walk and listen
in any community today
and you will hear the word used
during the night and during the day

Each time that I hear someone
use that word today.
I realize that they are spitting
on the grave of
Martin, Malcolm, Harriet, Marcus, Jesse Owens,
Paul Robeson, Jack Johnson, Rosa Parks
Sojourner Truth, Frederick Douglas, Josephine Baker
Shirley Chisholm, Langston Hughes, Billie Holiday,
Crispus Attucks, Thurgood Marshall, Medgar Evans, The slaves
and so many others
I am sure that they are sad to hear
that word used as it is today.

To those who feel that your use of the word is all that,
you are giving the power to the Slave Masters again
to take that bullwhip to your slave ancestors back.
Whack, Whack, Whack
Oh I’m sure your ancestors who where slaves
are just loving that
Whack, Whack, Whack

The Respect and Honor that
your ancestors will have for you
and in there spiritual ways
will help your self respect be bigger,
Which would you rather have,
the ancestors look at you as
someone on the stage as a
Talented poet or spoken word artist,
or just as a minstrel show nig…

It’s The New Cool

Posted: April 16, 2013 in Misc

This is really a reply to tweet conversation I was having with @BlackGirlNerds and @GeekSoulBrother.

 The problem that has occurred with the terms Nerd and Geek over the last few years is that they have gone from being something that people didn’t want to be referred to as, to being the cool thing to be called. With it now being something that is be called is good, the term has lost it’s meaning in many ways. Another way to think about it is not long ago when one would hear the work Artist, one didn’t think of someone who was in the music business, but someone who was a painter like Monet.

 The terms began to come into fashion during the early days of the Web, as the money that programmers and computer engineers grew and grew, the stigma of being called a Nerd or a Geek began to go away. Once Urkele on Family Matters became a popular, and with all of the money that was being made in the computer industry, being a Nerd or a Geek was cool.

 With the emergence of the terms becoming popular, and people wanting to be seen as one of the “Cool” people,  the term began to be applied to other things.

 Now should the term be applied to the Black Intellectuals? It should be with some, as they really are Nerdy and/or Geeky, but sadly being looked upon as being a Black Intellectual in our society is a bad thing.  We as a race and as a society still have the mentality that was around during Slavery when Blacks were not seen as being smart, but as savages. Once we as a race embrace  Black Intellectuals in a strong way, then the rest of society will, and then the true Bleeks and Blerds will be seen again, but accepted within the race.

 So ALL, post your comments below…

And The Cable Reality Show Winner is…..

Posted: March 26, 2013 in Uncategorized

It has been interesting watching cable tv over the last few weeks after not having it in years. I have come to the conclusion that I really don’t have any or desire to have cable when I move, as there isn’t really much of interest on it outside of what is on normal free tv.

Since there is nothing of super interest that is being broadcast on cable tv, I would like to announce that I feel that Family Guy is the Best Reality show that I have seen on cable, and it is really a show that I can watch on free tv.

I swear that most of the :”reality” shows on tv, especially on cable are fake and a total waste of time to watch.

raquel We have all heard about the different tragic shootings that have gone on over the years, from Columbine, Virginia Tech and so many others. We as a society get up in arms over the ability that the killers have been able to get the guns which have been used. But usually a few months will go buy and the furor will have basically vanished. It’s like what happens with natural disasters, where when it first happens we rush in to help, but not much later it is forgotten about and the people are left to finish rebuilding on there own. Oh yes there are those who never leave and stay until the job is done like the group Episcopal Relief and Development, and there are others, but for the most part it’s off to other things for most.

 The one thing that we often don’t hear about are the killings that happen in other places. From time to time we will hear about a killing, but for the most part we don’t. Here in this city, we had about 131 people killed in violent ways, and the saddest part is that the killings have been of those younger and younger. About a month ago, 3 people were shot outside of the building that I live in. I was home when it happened, and this wasn’t the first time that a shooting has occurred so close to where I live.

 About 6 weeks ago, I was watching the news and heard about two teenage girls who were shot at 6:30 Sunday morning, and the shooters shot them at least 30 times. I shuck my head and the feelings that we need to do something about guns in this country entered my mind again. But like many, not much later it was no longer on my mind. But this shooting turned out to be something different for me.

 I was watching the news about a week later when one of the news anchors mentioned the killings, but this time he said the names. I recognized one of the names, but I wasn’t sure it was the same person. Through some checking, it turned out that one of the girls killed was someone that I knew at one point in her life. Those feelings about gun control came back to mind as I shed tears thinking about her. Even though the two of us hardly ever talked, I had high hopes for her when she became and adult.

 When the day of her funeral came, as much as I wanted to go and support her family, I just couldn’t handle it, as I just wanted to sit in quiet and remember her, and I really don’t think that I could of dealt watching the tears of the sadness that her family as they mourned the lost of her.

 Over a weeks since then, I have gone to both church and community meetings, as I have in the past, but these times I spoke up when it was appropriate and talked about the things which had occurred, and talking about the killing of this girl (with her best friend,) and the shootings that had occurred in front of my place. I encourage people to speak up about what they had seen and heard when it comes to crime, as it will get the criminals to realize that they aren’t in a place where they will and will continue to get away with the things that they have done.

 A few weeks ago, the Bishop and the Diocese that I live in said that they were going to go to a Peace Rally in my city. It took a quick second for me to realize that it was an event that I needed to be at, not because my Bishop, The Rt Rev. Marc Handley Andrus was going to be there, but because I needed to start to stand up even more than I had, so I went.

 The group that was putting this rally on is called S.A.V.E., which is short for Soldiers Against Violence Everywhere. I thought that it would be a small group of people, but was surprise at the number of people who came out for this rally, which was about 75 people. I thought to myself that not enough people were there. This rally should have had thousands of people. Even though I wished that their were more people, I was glad that I went.

 About a week ago, I saw a notice a posting on Facebook from the group saying that they were going to hold another rally a few blocks away from where the two girls were killed. I knew that I had to go to this one as even though the police have arrested two of the killers, I had to go as a way of showing my support to the family of the one that I knew. I am friends with two of her siblings on Facebook, so I shared the flyer that had been posted on their pages just to make sure that they knew about it.

 I showed up and was the first one there. It was about 20 minuted before it was suppose to start, and I didn’t see anyone else around. I began to wonder if it was going to happen, and then said to myself that since I was not far from where it happened, I would walk over and just look and say some prayers. After a few minutes of standing there, a guy walked up to me and asked me if I was there for the rally. It was a comfort, as I knew it was going to happen. Then within minutes more and more people showed up.

 We gathered together and were about to start with prayers when I looked up to see her father come across the street with one of her brothers. I spoke up and said something, and they entered the prayer circle that we had. He introduced himself and grabbed one of the signs that had been brought, as he was going to join us.

 After we prayed, I walked up to the father and introduced myself and told him how I knew his daughter. Even though his son was with him, I think that it helped in knowing that there was someone there who knew his daughter.

 As time went by, another brother showed up who knew who I was, and we had a chance to talk. I hadn’t seen him in a few years, and it was good to catch up.

 We rallied about over and hour, then gathered back together and said more prayers. Her family that was there was given time to talk and they really appreciated that we could gather like this in the names of the two girls.

 Most people had left when her mom and sister showed up. They were upset that they had missed it, but they felt good and happy that it had occurred. Her mom and her sister gave me a big hug, and we were thrilled to see each other. We stood there and talked for a bit, then she asked me if I wanted to walk up to the memorial where the girls were killed, as she was going to walk up there. There was no way that I was not going to walk up there with them.

Corinna Castle cleans and looks over the memorial of the spot where her daughter Raquel was murdered

Corinna Castle cleans and looks over the memorial of the spot where her daughter Raquel was murdered

 We arrived there and I saw the two memorials across the street from each other, as they died across the street from each other. We stopped for a quick minute at her memorial then crossed over to the other one. I watched as she cleaned up around the spot, and a small feeling of the pain that she and the family was going through came into in mind. After a few minutes we went back across the street to where her daughter died, and it was really hard to watch as she cleaned the the area. I looked into her eyes and saw the pain that she was going through as she busy cleaned. It was hard to watch, as this was something that no parent should be doing. I was wishing that the killers were there to look into her eyes as she fought back the tears. I wished that the killers were there to see the pain that this family was going though. I wished that the killers where there to explain there actions to the family. I wished that the killers were there as a reminder of what they did.

 Now I know that we have this Constitutional Right to have weapons, but for this and the other killings that have happened throughout the country is not what the writers wanted to see happen in my view. I think that they felt it was necessary for people to have guns in order to defend this country, to be able to go out and hunt for the food that they needed to eat, and to be able to defend ones self from attacks from wild animals, but not for going out and killing people in the ways that are becoming more and more common throughout this country.

 What need to we really need for the types of assault weapons that are in people’s hands now? How many people really go out and use and assault weapon to hunt?

 At a press conference not long ago, the National Rifle Association (NRA) talked about how the schools should have armed people in and protecting the schools from things like this happening again. When I was in High School many years ago, we had police in the school and still I saw students with guns, and from what I understand, at the some of the schools where mass killing have occurred there were armed police and/or security.

 I have heard people say, “What kind of God would let children be killed like this?” As much as I hated for this to happen, I think that some of the answers are simply, “A God who wants for us to wake up and see the things that we do to each other.”, “A God who needs a way for us to remember that we need to treat each other like we would want to be treated.”, and there are so many other answers that can be brought forth. But sadly this comes at a cost to Loving Parents throughout the world.

 Raquel, your family misses you and they always will. May prayer is that you and Bobbie are in Heaven together being there for each other and are watching over your families and will bring them as much comfort as you can.

It’s All About ME

Posted: December 5, 2012 in Misc

I find it amazing the number of people who just think about themselves, and who they seem to be. I am often surprised by people who I think are all about themselves and selfishness, but tend to be givers.

As I sit back and think about people that I have dealt with over the last say ten years, I am amazed at the number of people that are really “Wolves in Sheep clothing”. I guess that it is because I have been involved a lot in church things during this time, it is amazing to me how many “Christians” are the wolves in such a way that one doesn’t seem to notice it until it is too late. Yeah some of them do mean well, but so many of them are doing so much harm to others that they are clueless. Oh bring it up to them, and they have their excuses. They lay the blame on others, and talk about all of the experience that they have, but the truth is that everything is about THEMSELVES wanting to be able to be able to boost their egos and their resumes.

Yeah I will admit that in ways I do it myself, but I am trying to do that less and less in my life. I may not be totally successful in doing it, but I’m trying. I will not say that I am trying my best, as I could be doing better, but I am trying and praying that I succeed.

I think that I have come to this because I have been thinking about some of the great people that have been in my life, like my parents, grandparents, relatives and friends who have lived their lives where things were not all about them.

I find it sad that we have to think about ourselves and what we want over others. We forget about what damage we do to others when we put our own needs first. I watch things like this over at a place that I go once a week, where people will lie to get more food for themselves not caring if others get some. Then we also get people that I know really don’t need the food, but only get one because it is free. But with some of these people who have lied to get two bags of food, will give a bag of food to others if they know that it is someone who is really in need. At a place where I go to afterward, they all will let me know of others elsewhere I should go to make sure that they are feed. One person that I usually give 2 bags two has pointed out other homeless people close by that she feels should also get a bag.

I also am surprised at the number of people that will say “Thank You”, or “God Bless You” when I give it to them. But with some where I would expect for them to say such words, they don’t.

But the ones that I think are the worse offenders of thinking about self, seem to present themselves as such great religious people. The Bible teaches us not to boast, but yet we seem to ignore that. We want for the world to know how great we are, and all of the wonderful things that we have done. The truth is that our true greatness is shown not when we boast about our greatness, but when we are no longer around and people then seem to notice and realize the amount of stuff and the things that we have done.

I have experienced over and over again people taking credit for the things that I have either done or come up with. I find it funny in that they do it to show others how great they are, but when they are asked to either duplicate what they have done, or asked about other things related to it, they seem to stumble. I have often thought about coming up with an idea that I know will fail horrible, that I know someone will want to take the credit for the idea for, and watch what happens when it blows up in their face. Oh I am sure that they will have a billion excuses as to why they shouldn’t be blamed, and how it was really someone elses idea, but I won’t because I really don’t want to see those that they could hurt get hurt.

I sit and watch as those with the ego fulfillment need go in and change things in places where they know very little about and force their wants and desires over those who have been there. I watch as those who basically know where the “bodies are buried” and the knowledge of the history of things leave and go elsewhere to bring forth ideas that blossom for other places, where it could of really blossomed where they had been if asked.

I find it so sad to hear people sit and talk about those with the ego needs get talked about behind their backs, and are looked up as a joke and to be avoided.

But I know that at times I can be one of those with the ego problem. If I have done something to you that came out of my own selfishness that has hurt you, let me know what I did so that I can try not to do it in the future, but also expect for you to listen to me also if you have hurt me in some way.

The Return Of Diseases?

Posted: November 25, 2012 in Uncategorized

Sitting here watching a documentary of dinosaurs, which is real interesting, then for some reason a question came to mind that I am sure that others have asked and wondered about before. I am suddenly wondering is by digging up things like dinosaurs and other animals, along with tombs of those who have died many millenniums ago, are we also digging up and bringing back to life diseases that once thrived upon this planet, or possibly other planets? Now I am not saying that we should stop searching into history in this way, as I believe that the more that we do the more likely will will find the proof of the existence of God that so many seem to demand. But then again we could discover that God doesn’t exist, but either way the work that is being done is very important.

But I do wonder what else are we discovering that we don’t realize that we are, as they are things that we we really don’t think or cross our minds to consider. Are we overlooking life forms that existed that we really don’t recognize as being life forms? Have we actually come across cures for diseases like AIDS, HIV, Cancer and other things that we have simply overlooked because we have been focused too much on something else?

Our problem as people I think is that we think that we know so much because me have managed to create so much, that we don’t really look for things, and are in a way way too scared to find things that we really don’t understand. We seem to be so focused on prizes, fame and notoriety that simple things that we should noticed go undetected. In the Bible, part of the focus that Jesus had was one children, and if you spend real time with children you will realize how they really don’t need much to be happy and to understand something. What is the most popular thing that really young kids seem to enjoy the most when it comes to gifts? It’s not the toys, but the boxes, as it allows them to use there imagination. How did Jesus sum up all of the Commandments? He told us to Love God, Ourselves and our Neighbors.

We as humans make many things more complex than we really should, but when we really think about things, or do things, we realize how simple many things are. One example that I will use for you to think about his cooking. Think about it. We look at a recipe or something that has been cook, and we think that it is something very difficult to cook, but once we see how to make it, it has become something that is very simple. Some of us think and say how difficult it is to learn another language (I’m one of them,) but in reality many of us know and speak more than one language. We know the language of our jobs, the streets, our family, signs and in many other things. We really want to make things more complicated than they really are and are unwilling to look at other possibilities.

One of the things that has really bothered me over the last few years is how complicated we have attempted to make the entertainment that we watch on TV and in the movies, and how we have basically forgotten to look at how simple things are. Ever since Star Wars came out a few decades ago, both TV and Movies have become do addicted to special effects that the simplicity of stories have been lost. I find myself at times not watching the main things put before us, but the things in the background that we really aren’t suppose to be paying attention to when they are on screen. I find it amazing as to some of the small things that we aren’t suppose to really notice, and how the logic of the stuff doesn’t seem right.

I am wondering if we were to look at the dirt and other stuff that are on the bones of dinosaurs and other things from centuries past if we will find the cures for things that we are spending trillions of dollars looking for those cures. Could it be that injecting a small drop of the dirt and bones of dinosaurs into the body could cure man types of diseases?

But I wonder what type of things we have released upon the world from opening up graves and other things that have been sealed shut? Could it be that in the past the way that people would stop others from robbing graves and disturbing graves was to create a type of chemical that would slowly kill the person slowly over time, and because we think that we are so smart and feel that those in the past weren’t as smart as us that we are suffering as a result? Since we really don’t understand or know much about animals of the past, they could of chosen to do it?

So, what diseases have been released upon the planet?

Do Polls Really Matter?

Posted: November 6, 2012 in Misc

 Most likely by the time that you read this, you will have voted and the election is over. Who has won and lost has been decided. Even though we won’t have to really deal with people who have announced that they are running for the position, people will be trying to position themselves to become the next nominee for the job, and in about 2 years we will begin to hear more about people who are planning on running.

But there is something that I am really hoping will happen by the time we get into the final stages of the election will be that someone will do a poll that has a fish having a better chance of winning the election over those running. Seriously, I think that it would be interesting to see what all of the pundits would have to say.

I’ve tired of hearing about polls, as I truly believe that they aren’t really reliable and actually have way too much power in an election. Because the press keeps pushing polls, I think that they influence how people vote and people really don’t pay attention to what the people who are running for office really have to say on what they plan on doing if elected.

 Imagine after all of the polls are talked about for the vote to be so far from what the polls have said. Oh I am sure that it has happened in the past, but if asked I am sure that the press would have all kinds of excuses as to why it was wrong, but then again I would guess that they would simple change the topic and not answer as to why they were wrong.

Why should we really care about what the polls have to say? Why and how does a poll really help someone decide how to vote if they haven’t bothered to pay any attention to what the candidate have said they will do in office if elected? Isn’t just paying attention and voting as the polls go making us a non-thinking society?

We as a society seem to rely way too much on polls, when in reality the only poll that really counts when things are over is the way that people vote in the end. I hope that you have or will go out and vote, and I really don’t care who you vote for, but vote for the people that you feel will represent YOU in the position.

What do you think?